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Art and creativity as a healing process

Art is more than what is seen and what meanings we the viewer can derive from it. Creating Art is a process that the artist goes through, and something is born out of that process that is more than the idea that spawned it.

In the middle of my life I came into a dark wood. Pencil drawing. Michele Benzamin-Miki

The above drawing was a work in progress over a five year period. It was a meditation with no immediate goal to finish it. It was more than a creative process it turned into a healing for me.

I was inspired to create this piece by my work teaching meditation in the Central Juvenile Justice Prison in downtown Los Angeles. Once  a week for over two and a half years I worked in the various holding chambers for youth from ages 8 to 17. There wasn’t a place in that institution I had not visited or taught in. The stories I could tell would disarm the prejudices you might have about these young people. I remember going into the institution with energy and compassion and driving away from it with tears streaming down my face.

This drawing was a way for me to pour my frustration, anger, and hopelessness into the drawing, so that I could continue working in these institutions with energy, determination, awareness and compassion.

Bleak as it may seem, this drawing has some light streaming in from the back ground, a turning of events. There is a dragonfly at the bottom right, which is the symbol of courage and fearlessness.

I met a boy who was only eight years old at one of my classes at the Juvenile prison. He had been bounced around in the foster care system, and was used by the older boys, because of his age, to run illegal errands. There was no other place for him in the system so he was put into juvenile prison. I met him in the “CD” unit which was for the youngest boys, and is a protection unit. It was furnished like a school classroom, and it was where I taught meditation. I was particularly drawn to this young boy as he was clearly soaking up the guided relaxations and meditations I was teaching that day, and seemed to be enjoying the class more than the others. He was glued to me, and was constantly asking questions about meditation. He was beaming, serene and peaceful, when I left.

I was told later that he was put in my class because he attempted suicide the day before. His story and others create the light emerging out of the darkness that is in the background of this image, that came later in my process.

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The title of this piece is taken from Dante’s inferno, “In the middle of my journey I came upon a dark forest.” It is a drawing -  pencil on paper  22″ x 30.”

There are signed prints online available 13″ x 19″ that can be purchased on line by requesting it in the description box – even though it is not shown in the on line store. You can shorten the title in the description box.

Art makes Visible…

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Art makes visible everything, anything, dreamed, imagined, possible, real.

The image here describes a modern day interpretation of Dante’s inferno, Canto 3, “Give up hope all ye who enter.” When I began this piece it was titled “Buried in the sand” and it is still the subtitle of the piece.

It is pencil on paper and 22″ x 30.” The image here does not give justice to the detail that is in the original. The landscape is cracked and dry and unstable above ground where the man is, the world underneath where his head is buried is filled with horrific detail.

About a decade ago I had devoted a lot of time to working in our prison systems, mostly with youth at risk and young adults. I taught specific meditation techniques, and integrated Aikido non-violence principles to  help them cope in their environment and situation. From this work came a drawing that will be on the next blog post. It was my meditation during that time. I pored all my frustration, anger, and fear into that drawing so that I could continue working within these institutions and be effective, compassionate and loving. It was the reason I did not burn out, and It took five years to complete it.

The artwork depicted here has a similar story and process. Just a few weeks ago I finished this piece. Here is a detail of the piece..

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Fine art prints for sale online – this piece will be available in December, along with several other new works.

Prints for Sale Online

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Signed prints of selected pieces of my art are now available here online.

Two current themes of my art can be seen in a slide show or by clicking each individual picture. You can access these images from the two new pages on the blog image bar above titled “Backbone” and “Piece of Mind Kids.”

“Backbone” is a series of work showing at the Bergamot Station at Grey McGear Gallery #G-7 in Santa Monica. The Backbone page also features a selection of my new works on Paper, a work in progress called “Path of the Sword.”

“Piece of Mind Kids” consists of a series of pastel portraiture of the youth at risk that I have worked with over several decades in various institutions and portrays them in a colorful, whimsical and fun way. The originals are currently showing at the Noel Baza Fine art gallery in San Diego.

Check out these two pages and enjoy the images.

The above image is titled “Follow Through,”  is Pencil on Paper and 17″ x 20,” it is part of a triptic in my new work in progress titled the “Path of the Sword.”

More Piece of Mind

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Colorful pastel portraiture tells magical tales. Your imagination is free to explore, buy now these images tell more than just children stories.

Their were these three gregarious sisters, not related yet bonded together by their love of animals and wild clothing for example. Sister number one was most reflective, thoughtful and a bit of a cheeky monkey.  Sister number two loved to learn and share those learning’s with others, and sister number three was quick witted and fast to take action. They combined their talents with their love of animals to the task of educating their classmates about animal rights and injustices. They were passionate about the care and treatment of animals and wanted only to share that passion with others.  They concerned themselves with speaking up for what they love rather than changing peoples beliefs. “Listen to our passion, and if it moves you like it does us, great!”

These girls represent for me the new spirit of activism I have seen from my young teen friends and students, putting their focus in championing what they love and  not blaming others for what they do.”

You can see the ” Three gregarious Sisters” now, showing at Noel Baza gallery (San Diego) through early September.

In the image above I am standing next to one of the gallery owners Tom Noel. Click on the “Piece of Mind Kids” page above in the picture bar to see the slide show of work.

My Art showing at Noel Baza Fine Art Gallery

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Pastel portraits, whimsical fantastic bright and colorful art works of the children that have inspired me over many years. I have spent quality time with these young people under some tough circumstances within the institutions and organizations for high risk youth, teaching them many life skills. This image here is of a young girl I  have renamed Kujichagulia. She identifies as 100% Happa, she is of mixed parentage, Japanese on her mothers side and African American on her fathers side. Like many mixed raced children there is a determination to self identify and therefore they can change there identity many times, and when ever it suits them.

In her words, “I love the magic of seeds that grow into plants, and how plants can even break through concrete, they are allot like me, tough and filled with magic.”

You can see “Kujichakulia” and the other kids hanging around at the gallery Noel Baza, 2165 India St. North of  little Italy in San Diego it is the new home for my pastel portrait series “Piece of Mind Kids.”

Love of Art – Art of Love

Spiritual traditions world wide speak about longings – the longing to be one with the source of  love. Like a bamboo reed growing in a still pond that dreams of being a flute played in the hands of a virtuoso, the bamboo flute that longs to be a reed in a still pond, and like our own longing to connect to the source of our existence.

There is a clear connection for me between the creative process that makes art and the creative process that is love.

My late Japanese grandmother – Obaasan, Noe, saw that I had a passion for drawing. I was three perhaps four years old living in Japan, and we (my mother, father, sister and I) were staying with Obaasan.

I remember the many coloring books, and crayons she gave me. The many days spent coloring with her. One day in particular stands out above all the rest. I remember that day clearly – feeling this enormous frustration as she tried to keep me coloring within the lines.  It was quite an advanced coloring book with pages upon pages of Japanese letters and Kanji. I would naturally continue to spill out and color all over the whole book, and even onto the floor. She eventually replaced the book with these huge pieces of blank paper. I remember the enormous joy and freedom I felt when she did that. Eventually I got too expressive for these large sheets of paper on the floor, so she then began to tape the paper together all over the floor, and even onto the walls!

We were both set free that day. Free to love. Free to create!

Unconditional love frees us from the limitations of our conditioned love, informs us to be creative! Michele Benzamin-Miki

All things splendid have been achieved by those who dared to believe that something inside them was superior to circumstances. Bruce Barton

The image above is Dry Media 11×14 inches, titled ‘Longing,’ all works are for sale and prints are available. Contact me if you’re interested.
I can also be contacted for Creative Coaching and Hypnotherapy.

My first Oil Painting

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Oil painting is a very sensual experience. Beyond the ideas and concepts of how to fill the empty space of ‘canvas’ – there is the full sensory process of painting. The paints texture, it’s smell, the laying out of the palette of colors and mixing them with the mediums, the contact of brush with paint and paint to canvas, and then knowing when the painting is complete. This whole process is translated to the viewer – somehow, felt, perceived, sensed, known.

In the winter of 1989, I did my first oil painting, and titled it “Watashi no Inouchi” (translates as ‘My Life’). The word Inouchi means more than Life – it is life with the awareness of death, informing us in how to live fully, in the moment, here and now. It is the image above, and it has a wonderful story of how I first came to painting in oils.

I had a showing in an art gallery in Venice, California. It was the shows reception and It was there that I met this Latino man with the soulful eyes, named Alberto. He approached me and introduced himself as a fashion photographer – He did high fashion photography and was interested in my art. He wanted me to paint his models faces like the figures in my paintings – the paintings were Acrylic and Airbrushed images of Japanese theater – Kabuki combined with Geisha ( I was making the connection between the two worlds of artistic expression ). He was disillusioned with the fashion world and wanted to create his own photographic images. After talking awhile he asked me to be one of his models. I had modeled before for fashion shows and photo shoots, so I was open to this, but I wanted to make sure he was legitimate so I challenged him by saying – the only way I am to be photographed is with my sword – I am a highly trained martial artist and one of my expressions is ‘Iaido’ – a Japanese sword form. He was pleased by this, and so I said yes.

Together we visited several of his fashion designer friends, picking out whimsical and fantastic dresses and costumes. The location of the shoot was the Malibu Pier. He lived at the end of the pier in a studio space overlooking the ocean. I brought my make-up, kimonos and my sword.

It was wild, executing my trained traditional sword movements in these high fashioned outfits, not to mention the high, high heels. Then it was time to wear my own kimonos, more traditional, and more of a match for the sword. Alberto then asked me to use the sword in some way I never explored before, forgetting all traditional forms and my relationships to them.

Wow. I immediately cradled the sword like a baby, and placed its sharp blade near my ear, as if listening to what it was saying to me. It was an extraordinarily beautiful moment.

This experience transformed me in so many ways that I decided to continue to stretch myself and paint this very image in a medium I had never explored before – oils !

The mind of the painter should be like a mirror which is filled with as many images as there are things placed before him/her.   Leonardo da Vinci

People can’t live with change if there is not a changeless core inside of them. The key to the ability to change is a changeless sense of who you are, what you are about, and what you value.   Stephen Covey

Imagination and Creatively Living on Purpose

Imagination is key to creating an artful and purposeful life.

We spend most of our days imagining all manner of things withStillnessout a purpose, yet these pictures, images and thoughts eventually guide our direction in life. Therefore it is important that we purposefully guide our images and pictures and thoughts. Take hold of our imagination and direct it on purpose. I make it a daily practice to take care of what I imagine so that it is congruent with my values and on purpose.

Purpose is a process, as alive as we are, It lives through us and along-side us. My purpose is to be an Artist in all aspects of my life,  actively working for inner peace and a society-world that reflects that. To inspire and coach others to be creative and celebrate life, to be compassionate, generous, and participate in what ever ways they can in creating a better world for the generations to come.

Here is how I worked my imagination today. I imagine a newborn baby opening its eyes for the first time, the shimmer of a dragonfly’s wings in the early morning light on Mount Fuji, the sun setting in the South of France over fields of sunflowers as far as the eye can see, biting into a crisp apple just picked, the smell of jasmine at night, the final note written on Beethoven’s fifth symphony, the final stroke of the brush in the Mona Lisa’s smile, seeing the fourth primary color, and what a world with an economy based on peace would look like.

It is a necessary thing for us to spend some part of our day to stretch the imaginative muscles with intention and direction.

This drawing is titled ‘Stillness.’ Be still, listen, see, observe and feel in the vast space of that stillness, and all that is possible emerges.